-"Life always beings with one step out of your comfort zone"
"Everything you've ever wanted - Is on the other side of fear"
"Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the WHOLE staircase" Martin Luther King
There are two very distinctive sides to me. One side of me is the hard working, outspoken person (especially when I feel passionately about something), who has high standards, and is a very loyal friend. The other side of me is a bit shy, timid, fearful, bogged down at times w/ baggage, and prefers to stay completely in my comfort zone-where its nice and comfy of course. Some people wouldn't believe the latter side of the two...or maybe they would. I don't know. I often think differently of myself than maybe people who know me think. Either way I sometimes feel confused about my purpose and if I'm really fulfilling what God has set for my life. I think in some areas yes, but in many areas no. I know its really time for a change!
Sooo why in the world am I starting a blog? Ive asked myself this question numerous times and even when my husband challenged me to do so I responded ever so negatively "why would anyone want to listen to what I think. There are so many other people in the world to read about so why me?" Who knows maybe my sweet husband wanted to nicely tell me to write down my never ending thoughts instead of telling them all to him...joking but not really, trust me I get it... but either way this randomly came to me...why not me? Its time to challenge myself to make some choices that honestly terrify the CRAP out of me. To just live my life without any regrets and without caring so much about what anyone thinks along the way. In my opinion it would be so much easier to live my life flying slightly under the radar. You know-don't bring any unnecessary attention my way. Maybe that's not how God wants me to live???
I have decided to go on a journey of challenging myself to write down my thoughts and be completely transparent along the way. That four letter word FEAR has crippled me for too long and frankly its getting old. So let me preface this by saying I won't pretend to be some prolific writer or anything. After having two kids and staying home the last two years I seriously sometimes wonder if I was really ever college educated. I mean I forget everything, my spelling is horrible, yet when the Doc Mcstuffins intro song comes on I know ALL the words. Its really quite embarrassing. Anywho writing, I believe, is just the best way for me to document my journey. I initially thought about youtube videos but then I quickly remembered 9th grade speech class. We had to do speeches in front of the class (recorded!!!) and then watch them as a class to critique each other. Come on, seriously who thinks of these horrible things to do to kids?!?! ;0 Immature teens aren't the best at "constructive" criticizing-so needless to say it was humiliating and embarrassing. I also think I broke the record w/ how many times "um" could be said in a 10min speech...so for now i'll stick to trying my hand at writing. ;)
My topics will be random because honestly thats just the way my brain works. I love to learn new things so join me on my journey and who knows maybe you can become a better you while I become a better ME!