A follow up from my self check post

.A few weeks ago I decided it was time to figure out what I was doing (that was not productive)and make some changes. I was filling my mind with all the negative stuff going on in the world, feeling overly anxious about chores that needed to get done, and not reading my Word because I just couldn't find time in my schedule. Basically I was just busy but not necessarily busy doing what's most important.

Soo how did my more positive and less busy week go?

It was actually quite nice. I might have washed dishes once that week which is a shocker for me. Our sink and trash can seems to magically fill up daily. I was much more calm and relaxed according to my husband. I took a couple naps and listened to several excellent Andy Stanley sermons from North Point Church. I started re-reading an amazing Christian book on marriage called, "Becoming the woman of his dreams," by Sharon Jaynes. I will write a post about that book soon as it was eye opening! I spent much more un-rushed quality time with my family overall which was a blessing.

Proud moment:
I also diverted being caught up in family drama. It was like the day I said I was going to only focus on positive stuff for the week the very next day all crap hit the fan and I was bombarded by a big family blow-up that had nothing to do with me. I was actually pretty proud of the way I handled myself not getting overly involved which is extremely hard to do with my family!

Although my week was great-I mean how could I not enjoy letting most of my home responsibilities fall by the waste-side while I put together puzzles and watch "Trolls" with the girls I'm not sure I can live my life 100% that free flowing. Parenting small children requires order. With this said, I definitely have to find a balance.

I know I'm in a better mood when there is order in my life. The way my personality is set up- it's necessary, but I will definitely also try to be more in the moment too. I also realize I'm just in a wild season right now that requires more energy and hands on work...this too shall pass!

So what did I learn...
On a super positive note-

1. My world would not collapse around me if I took a break. Surprise surprise!!!
2. I'm a better mom and wife when I'm not over planning and attempting to win some productivity contest that doesn't exist
3. Dishes, sweeping, laundry, etc is not going anywhere but you know what is... My time! My kids will not always be this little and although prayerfully they will always want to hang out with their mama (wink wink), they may not say "I want to snuggle" as adorably as they say it now!! Time is one of those things once spent you can never get back!

On a super real note-

1. No matter how much rest and relaxation I have, I'm a mom of an (almost) two and four year old...By the end of the day I'm typically wore out, exhausted, confused, and/or close to tears ;)
2. Let's keep it 💯 because even on a good day I am sure to endure tons of kid whining, which frazzles my nerves like no other. It seriously could be recorded and used as a war torture technique!
3. There is no amount of sweeping that will ever keep food, scraps, slime bits, etc off my floor
4. I'm a wife AND a mom and finding that healthy balance isn't always easy but it's ABSOLUTELY NECESSARY! I don't need to parent my husband and I don't need to spend all my time catering to my kids that I forget my best bud either!!

I guess in the end BALANCE is the key!