I've spent so many years being silent in order to not “rock the boat” for lack of a better phrase. However, now the boat has capsized and I no longer ignore when people who I’ve called friend over the years show me who they really are. I no longer shy away from commenting or posting about topics that may cause some of my white friends to feel uncomfortable. In fact I’ve spoken up more in the past year than I ever have in the past several years and I’m proud of myself bc I typically shy away from uncomfortable confrontations.
I try not to ignore any longer but if you still don’t get it by now, I’m just going to delete you from my space. I can’t change ignorance when you prefer to take up roots there and maybe that sounds harsh but I’m tired. You want to know why Im tired...
I'm tired of having to explain Kap kneeling. Tired of seeing your posts about how great the past Presidents are and what they did for blacks when you know this country was built 100% on racist beliefs.. Tired of being told WE need to do research when the only research some of y’all know are what whitewashed school history books print. Tired of you trying to convince me that Trump is for my people-I’m not stupid please save it. Tired of you quoting the 3 ignorant black people who follow Trump and think that’s supposed to matter to me. Those folks are already cancelled by my community.
Tired of gentrification and the people who have the nerve to call the police on the black folks who still live in THEIR own original neighborhoods. Tired of police brutality and abuse of power. Tired of racial gaslighting. Tired of the All lives matter and "what about the good cops" folks. Tired of quiet churches who worry more about political or financial ramifications for speaking out against the very stuff Jesus spoke against.
Tired of COVID and a government who cares more about the people protesting to keeping bars open during a pandemic than about the livelihood of the people to which it serves. Tired of private prisons. Tired of people who smile in my face, tell me how much they love me, and how cute my kids are but hold real deep rooted racist beliefs that trickle out just enough to get unfriended. Tired of people who are so ready to go on a mission trip to Africa but don’t even care about African Americans.
Tired of politicians sending me flyers and commercials of themselves at black churches clapping off beat, holding black babies, and hanging out with black folks EVERY time it’s time to get my black vote and disappear before the smoke clears. Tired of explaining systematic racism to people who can’t understand how hundreds of years of slavery and laws that upheld the notion that a black person was not even considered a human being could possibly create long term trauma.
Tired of people who are on committees and leadership roles to bring about racial unity and mission work but when racial unjust happens they are no where to be found and so quiet you can hear a pin drop. Tired of the “go back to Africa folks”- you guys make zero sense! Tired of laws, the job market financial institutions, healthcare, housing, education, etc all geared to hold black and brown people back. Tired of the “I’ll let you sing your national anthem at the game, fix syrup and rice packaging, and take “master” off of a bedroom but I won’t lock up the police who kill innocent black people” folks. Breonna I’m so sorry girl!!
Tired of the “Becky, Karens, and Susans” of the world who perpetuate victimization. Tired of the are you ok texts from “friends” but when you respond back “no...” they have nothing else to say so you know you was only a check off their list of to dos. Tired of black boys being considered cute when small and then seen as criminals when they grow up. Tired of folks so upset about black lives "mattering." Think about that folks. Just mattering...
Tired of black women being labeled angry when they speak up! Tired of the slew of white women past and present who have had so many black men lynched, mutilated, murdered, jailed, etc off of their unfounded lies!! Tired of explaining my hair and why I don’t want you to touch it. Tired of Hispanic kids being snatched from their families and being held in cages at the borders and many white evangelicals stood by idle and were ok with this.
Tired of the “why the violence if only y’all could protest peacefully folks”... oh like MLK who was assassinated for that very thing. Tired of the “I’ll just write my name in on the ballot” folks bc I don’t like either pick”- good grief it will backfire like it did before!! Tired of Kanye and his narcissistic ways. If you vote for him because he has a decent gospel track then success y'all have fallen for the okie doke. Don’t get sidetracked people by the flashing lights and sparkles🤦🏽♀️.
Tired of racist monuments that people fight for harder to keep than the rights of actual human beings. Tired of the pro life folks who are really only pro birth. Tired of being watched like a hawk in a store bc I’m black. Tired of the "I care so much for my country and flag so much so that I'll fight and die for it, but won’t even put on a mask to save American lives" folks- #goodnight. Tired of arrogant racist confederate flag toting, gun brandishing, I’m going to teach my kids and grand kids to hate blacks, jews, gays, Mexicans, muslims, etc folks. Simply TIRED of the hatred based on skin color/greed and all the Christians who look the other way because none of this affects their lives but steady use the Bible incorrectly to support their views.
Of course I could continue...but just know that I AM Tired, and I can assure you than many black people feel the same. We ARE TIRED of the foolishness!!